5/17/2008
Wondering what I might be doing home on a Friday night? Specialy when I am back in Brazil?...
I always ask myself that... The reason is very simple.. sometimes I just need time to write.... Its like
this crazy need to stop for a while, sit down and write.... Even though today is a good day to party,
I just feel like staying home, and spend some time with myself that was when I remembered my so lost
blog. Yes, a place to dump my thoughts... to complaim... to celebrate my good days... to share...
probably no one is ever going to read it again, but me... like I did yesterday through my old files...
Talking about old... Here comes the end of my 2 years abroad. Ready for some action? Did you
have water by your side? Have you gone to the bathroom yet? You should... once you start the
next lines you wont stop until the bottom sentence... Well, my last post was in August. So much
happened after that, of course.. Let me see if I could remember a few things... I got passed with A+
in my English 118, and got to sign up for English 122 (sooo nice!) and Early Chilhood Education!
For my surprise I was doing great in both. I loved to write my papers and read my books. Things
were all right in Cali, too... A few more girls joined our group... I got really close to Maria, and my
English was pushed to another level...the slang level... lol... meaning: I got to finaly understand
a lot of stuff... good to walk around with an American friend. What else... Oh, my dance classes
were going just OK, too. Me and my partner- Mr. David- got to perform to a small group of
other salsa dancers.. really sweet that even his daughter was there to see him. The fall was
over fast, and after I realized that that was time to make some decisions, life came and stroke me
like a truck. Literally, actually! I got in a car crash on the 10th of October while I was driving to
the college in the morning. A guy lost control of his SUV and came right into the gas truck in front
of me. I avoided him by pulling to the left but that was when I hit the one of highway divisors...
five cars total were involved.. and remembering all still hurts... That just ruined my plans,
and my dreams... Bet after all, I was fine. Walking. Jumping. Well, but with two broken vertebrae
I had to come back to recover at home. After that, things got a little
complicated.... What let me really down was the fact that that was my vacation week and I was
about to visit my first host family in New Jersey--- the place where I left my heart. I had tickets, all
planned to go to Disney with them...In the end I had to come home. Not a bad thing at all
considering the whole picture. I was walking....
Getting home... I might say it was a bit painful, literally. The flight was not easy with my broken
bones... But once I got home... Wow... such a nice feeling... I had to get used w/ life here again fast, and I tryed
my best (after 6 months I am still trying!). I start to take care of my injuries by wearing braces for
3 months and I am still going to physio theraphy sections.... Things started to fall in place in february
when I started to work part-time as an English teacher. I am teaching beginers classes to kids, teens, adults...
It's fun... One of those things you never thought you could do it, but in fact I like it. Meanwhile, I saw
my old friends (those whom frienship it's going to last a life time- I hope!), and get used to be home
again. Weird to call MOM and see my mom coming in. More weird is the fact the I miss my life in
the US sooo much... All the nice people I met, my college mates, the kids... specialy them.
LIFE... But that's life, uh? When you think you have everything figured out something happens to
shake life a little... I loved my two years abroad. One of those things you will never forget, or regreat.
Actualy is the other way around... I am a new person thanks to those years. It's a new version of
the old me: stronger, realistic, and faithful b/c you never know what's waiting next corner, or how the
next ride will be... just hoping to be something good... Yes, life is not easy but it is worth it when good
things happen in a blink of an eye.
So here, is me, hagging on until my next vacation when I plan to visit my Schnorrbusch family in NJ
and the Berkmans in CA... have a nice Friday, and if someone happens to read this leave a message!
;o) Saudadesssss....
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8/16/2007
wow, mais de 2 meses sem postar. Foi maldade nao. Nem preguica! Foi correria mesmo!
My lfe is always in the fast lane over here. The fact that I am working like crazy, let me unable to chat online like before. All the free time that I have is spent with friends, books or sleeping! Sleeping? If you can say so, because I've been sleeping so little lately. Well, "bones of the job"...kkkkkk.... Lets go to the news? Ok! here we go... After June was gone, and not much had happened but work and some nights out with friends, July came. Josie came from NY to visit me and Ana came from Germany to visit our hostfamily. We spent days between the pool, the movie theater and the park. Of coure, San Chico as well. We went to the Gay Pride Parade, just to watch and have some fun. Its the largest one! July also brought me a huge responsability of an English course. The course is done for now and I had so much fun. New friends, a lot of reading and writing. Great!! Meanwhile, my life became a bit more confortable when comes to be concerned about my job. I am not having a cow for nothing, anymore! I understand the kids better (yes, we still fight- I love action!), and the feeling of being home is stronger now! I still talk to my other hostFAMILIA em NJ every week or so. Well, July also came and went by really fast. August started full of promisses by the warm weather and cool briese. An Earthquake shaked one of our nights and left me with the feeling of being alive. Another feeling showed up, too. In the end of June some stuff happened .... It was not much, but enought to make me aware of my weakness. I've learned my lesson... Well, I think I am growing strong, thats how I see all that had happened. In the other hand, my friendship w/ other friends are also stronger now. We went to a "Festa Junina", to an Island, saw a lot of movies... Life is good, I keep saying. Sometimes you are up, sometimes you are down. The secret is to enjoy the ride! Now September is almost here. My moms B-day is tomorrow and father's day was last week. I felt so lonely. Homesick! But it did not last too long. Thats it for now. Hope to come back here soon... If I forget, drop me a note by e-mail or Orkut and let me know it's time to take the dust out of this place again...
SAUDADES!!!!!!!!!!!!
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6/02/2007
PART II:
I already said that life here is not easy... sometimes you are on the spot, and sometimes on the edge too( you cant even pick one!). But its still not a reason for regret about your year and experience abroad. In fact, it is all that experience that brings you every morning the desire to keep going. The news things every day, the friends, the new places... New experiences... After finding that new friend I was telling about, we decided to go on a nice trip- with more friends- last weekend.... Everything was preatty organized and our plans were good... The weather was Ok. Not so bad... cold, but not frizzin'... Well, my point here is not that weekend itself, but how in two sec so much can change... I met two brazilian girls a week before all that... And now the circle of friends is even bigger....one of them ended up going camping with us. The other one was having a B-day party and invited us over (we had just met at the store)... So crazy! Just look like I know them from before. One more time I felt very lucky! One more time... And if life was a puzzle, my pieces were finally getting together.... Have you ever felt that way?
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PAUSE: PICTURE: I was reading the news paper... I do it everyday(or almost). Well, if in one hand I've been so blessed, in the other I feel like I should help others, like Olivia, she is 14 and almost gave up school for a sad reason: bullyng. (Thats when people around pick on you: they'd say anything to make you believe that you are not good.). So Olivia was called fat, ugly, lier... and so on... she moved to another school and one more time, everybody was picking on her. Her mother was homeschooling her...when Olivia was helped by two sisters that knew about Olivia's problem... The sisters started a lovely and warm "little thing": they'd ask everybody to send Olivia a true message of how she should be strong and do not give it up. Well, now Olivia is back to school and her "thing" became a huge movement across the country to keep other kids happy on schools here in US, because a research proved that "bullyng" is the first stage for depression that could end up like Columbine or Virginia Tech. Or on high rates of suicide if the young mind cant hang on anymore. So I am doing my share and passing on the message: BE STRONG. No matter what: DO NOT GIVE UP! And if you think twice you will realize that that happens in all stages of life: at work, between friends, at home... So keep going... Find a passion to keep you sober. And pass the message on because you are special for someone.
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And finally answering the questions: Well, when I was looking for a new family wasn't because of my other hostfamily, that I still love and that are still my friends. It was just a matter of schedulle- they could not have me the way the wanted to. What I think about moving on to a new family on your 2 year? I think that it depends on you. Are you strong? You are going to struggle to learn all again. But, in the other hand, the new experience about testing your limits and know more people, finding more friends and know a new place, is great. Money cant buy! rsrsrsrs... My advise? There is no advise. Follow your heart and your God. Listen to it closely and let me know the answer. =)
Thats all guys... missing home a lot. Saudades e beijos p/ Katia e pra Erica.
PS: Once you get here you realize that time flies and there is not much time left to write as much as you wish!!!
=)
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5/03/2007
Sooner than it seems life turns around! =)
Life here is not easy, I regret to think that life is easy any where else. Life is always life and the way you take all that happens is what takes to make life fun or sorrow. And on the past two weeks I've been very lucky. On a charmy morning I went to a bookstore and the book I was looking for was sold out. Talking to a nice guy that works there, he got my e-mail and number in case the book arrives. The thing was that a simple e-mail started a friendship that I hope last for long and good. We met again and his friends are my friends now, and they are all fun and seem to be like me. Somehow I feel like I know them form before and that I can just fit there. I feel confortable and it is fun to be around then. Saturday we went out again and the night ended up preatty magical. We all went for breakfast in San Francisco and after that, for a walk on the beach. Was good. I was feeeling home and have some friends was a big part of the whole thing.
Thanks to all of them for "let me in"... for those who are "crossing their fingeres" for me...
Hug and kisses for everybody... missing home but holding on.... =)
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4/23/2007
E A ViDA SEGUE!!!
Bom, quase um mes de California e new hostfam.
A vida aqui na Califa eh MUITO mais corrida pra mim. EU trabalho mais horas e tenho mais atividades porque minhas kids sao super ocupadas... Ja fiz amigos e ja estive em Sao Chico 2x... Eh pertinho... uma meia hora daqui de BART (um metro) e custa 7 (ida e volta), entao estou conhecendo bastante a regiao. A primeira vez fui soh pra passear e conhecer around. Na segunda vez eu tinha um proposito: assistir a uma aula danca... meu unico recurso era um mapa. Achei o lugar e fiz a aula apanhando muito pra acompanhar a turma... Putz! Descobri que nao sei dancar. =) E hoje a noite tem mais aula! Salsa eh bom d+!
Minha new hostfam eh legal e sao gente boa. No meu aniversario, sexta passada, fui sequestrada para tomar cafe da manha com os olhos vendados e tambem saimos pra jantar. Depois eu "me levei" prum bar aqui pertinho pra curtir musica mesmo...
Saudades? Muitas... d+ ateh! Da minha outra casa roxa... minhas outras kids e meus amigos da Costa Lest. Mas aqui a vida tah comecando a tomar rumo e eu vou me adaptar again logo. Acho que ateh ja me adaptei...
Andei fazendo amigos e fomos ver HOTFUZZ ontem. Putz, massa... adorei. Chorava de rir. =) ahuahuahau...
Eh isso... meninas que ainda querem "se jogar" nessa mesma aventura: mente aberta sempre e forca na piruca porque o batidao comeca cedo e nao eh facil. Tem dias que a unica saida eh rir pra nao chorar... E eh trabalho, viu? Toda diversao vem depois em seu tempo livre...
beijos e saudades de casa... BRAZIL... mamis... Lalitinhu... Jr.... Billy... Vei... amiguinhos... geral....
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3/28/2007
MEU ESTRANHO MUNDO...
EXATO... CADA COISA DOIDA QUE ME ACONTECE...
Escrevo diretamente da minha casa nova na CA...
Gente, o lugar eh mesmo lindo. O voo foi MUITO cansativo e
tirando tudo isso a companhia aerea perdeu minhas
2 malas. Espero que encontrem logo. A familia eh um amor
e foi muito dificil dizer "tchau" pra outra fam em NJ.
Sim, saudades de casa, mas muito feliz.
BEijos especiais pra Thais e para a Andressa.. Brigada meninas...
BEijos p/ galera e saudades de casa.
Depois passo aqui com mais tempo.
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3/26/2007
POIS EHHHHH POST DE 1 ANO LONGE DE CASA.
Essa hora ano passado estava eu em SP embarcando nessa aventura que mudaria minha vida in many ways. Cresci, aprendi, vi e conquistei. Mas tambem fiquei sozinha, chorei, cai e levantei. Conheci lugares e fiz amigos. Quebrei barreiras e aqui estou... Firme mais um ano.... E nao importa se passarao 20 anos, certas coisas ainda me surpreendem por aqui e me surpreenderam qdo eu cheguei. Como ja nao lembrava de tudo, fiz uma "listinha" com a ajuda da galera da Comun. Au Pair no Orkut... Olha ai, o que achamos esquisito:
*Jantar arroz, brocolis, frango e tomar leitea falta d banho eh terrivel mesmo!hm.. lavar pano d prato com calcinha tb eh terrivel!-- Lay
*mae e filho se encontrarem depois de meses e falarem "hey"(?)*ir pra piscina e considerar isso banho, chega em casa e coloca os pjs*estranho eh eles considerarem o fato de eu comer pizza com mostarda, estranho. Eles acham a coisa mais bizarra do mundo*peanut butter & jelly pro almoco. Pao com jelly e ovo. argh! - Amanda
*o povo do ColdStone (sorveteria) canta qdo a gente da "tip"... Achei muuuuiiiiitttoooo comedia e me assutei... depois fiquei com olhar de critica pq tem "uns tiozinhos" que cantavam com uma ma vontadeeeeeee...-eu
*janelinha do basement...aff que medo de ficar olhando e de repente aparecer o panico rsrsrs- Ana Carol
*Au pair vem em par!Ja se ligou que passamos a andar em pares??Tipo, vc convida apenas uma "au poor" p/ alguma festinha e tal... Mas ela vem com outra junto... pra ter companhia e pelo medo de nao conhecer ninguem...Assim... au pair aqui eh que nem Presunto e queijo, brigadeiro e cajuzinho, Katchup e maionese... cansei de ser levada pras "festinhas" por amigas e la encontrar au pair que so conhecia pelo Orkut, blog ou fotolog... ou seja:Au pair vem em pacotes... como tudo nesse pais... E se brincar pacotes "extra large"... -eu
*cafe da manha de hotel: "breakfast potatoes" (??????), bacon, ovos, linguica. panqueca,donnuts e muffim. com leite puro. ah, e cereal,claro. -Graziele
*Essa do pijama achei um horror, nao consegui disfarçar a cara de susto quando topei com uma adolescente no Wal Mart usando pijama e carregando um básico edredon nas costas. - Lau
*pra mim eh jantar e tomar leite...esses dias eles me ofereceram aqui e por educacao aceitei pq era a unica coisa q tinha pra tomar ou agua..kkkkk meu nao cosegui. nao descia... hauhuahuahua mto engracado. E esse negocio de ketchup na pizza tb eles acham mor estranho...hahuahuhauahauha agora ja aprendi a comer waffle com peanut butter e jelly hummmmmmmmmmm delicia- Helo
*E minha ex-host casou num asilo Huhauahuahuahauhau....Um monte de veio cego e surdo assistindo o casorio..... comedia!!! -Thais
*os meus puppies tem um quarto dentro de casa! Alias, uma SUITE, nao um quarto! :D -Gigi
*- Limonada cor de rosa ...ave maria, nem acreditei- ir no mall de pijamas,- usar bota de neve com bermuda qdo nao tem neve...- biquini com brilho e de veludo, ah, e com enchimento nos peitos,- maquiagem super mega ultra carregada num dia de sol,- escada rolante na academia (e as mocas tbm vao maquiadas),- fazer aquela pituca no cabelo bem no alto da cabeca...kkkk- criancas de 4, 5 anos no carrinho de bebe. -Giovana
*Eles tem um feijao em latas que chama PINTO BEANS HAHAHAHAHAHA rachei o bico qdo li.- Karen
*Meu, qse esquecemos o melhor: a Britey Spears carequissima...Isso que eh estranhooo....hauhauahuahua....desculpa nao deu p/ perder a piada!Outra: A galera americana aqui nao "fica" na balada mas se "esfrega" que eh uma beleza, ne? Fikei besta - eu
*minha host acha super engracado pq a ex au pair no ano passado ficou toda vestida de verde e amarelo, com brinco do brasil, pulseira, do brasil, camisa, bandeira, td! E, principalmente, pq ela chorou qdo o brasil foi eliminado!- Mariel
*- o nome do paozinho ser ENGLISH MUFFIN. Pq english muffin? Alguem sabe?- comer grapefruit exclusivamente de cafe-da-manha! Q nada a ver!-Stellar
*estranhissimo e super naum-respeitoso cm a natureza (uauu hauhau) eh eles tomarem agua em garrafinha, ai acabo a garrafinha eles jogam fora.. em vez d comprar aqueles galoes d 20 litros ... bemmmm estranho!!!!! - Vanessa
*- E virar a direita com sinal vermelho? Eu perdi as contas de quantas businadas eu levava pq ficava esperando o sinal ficar verde....-Juliana
*maquiagem altamente carregada*camisas xadrez*calça jeans pra ir na igreja nem pensar*feijao doce*tomate com açucar*dar o prato pros cachorros lamberem depois da refeição*lavar as toalhas todos os dias mas os lençois uma vez por mes-Lala
Pois eh... Essas foram algumas das coisinhas citadas... Entao, com a ajuda das meninas postei o classico post de 1 ano. Amanha tomo outro rumo e me jogo pras bandas da Califa pro 2 ano. Tive que sentar nas malas pra fechar. Sao 3 malas e ja foram 2 caixas... Eh muita tralha que se junta em 1 ano, putz! Muitas saudades de casa, mas muita vontade de ver o que estah por vir.
Mil beijos as meninas que me ajudaram e as que estao vindo agora boa sorte. E mais sorte p/ quem veio comigo e tah voltando p/ casa esses dias...
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